What's going on with Tantalism??

I love that site! Why is it shut down? It's been two days, I'm wondering what happened.
I hope there was nothing illegal or anything going on, I was signed up for it, so I hope everything is on the up&up. If anyone knows let me know. Hopefully just some scheduled maintenance!

An incredible Sunday afternoon!

Had an incredible afternoon today!!
Finally had time alone. He went and ran errands and I hopped in the bath, shaved and prepared myself. When he got back I was laying in bed and he came and sat down beside me. I slowly started touching him and he quickly got the idea that I was very interested in some play (I waited all week!).
I slowly helped him take his clothes off and then sucked on him for a long, hard time, sighing and moaning as he touched me all over. Soon I could tell that he could barely hold back and he suddenly flipped me over flat onto my stomach in one motion and then grabbed my hair roughly, pulling me up to my hands and knees very painfully. He entered me roughly from behind and pumped me furiously for a good long while before exploding deep inside me. It took everything in me not to climax with him!
About 20 minutes later, as we lay there, I slowly kissed my way down to his waist and took him in my mouth again, softly and slowly. He touched me as I did, and I nearly lost it several times just from him touching my breasts! I had to actually push his hands away because I was SO on edge. I sucked for a while more until he shifted to being on his knees above me and released his load deep into my throat. I had a moment of pure bliss in pleasing him and then it suddenly turned to mild jealousy as I realized he would be the only one experiencing any kind of release tonight!
SO on edge right now, and keep feeling small butterflies every time I think back to earlier today, wishing I had gotten to experience everything he got to today! But somehow it's even MORE pleasure for me to know that all the energy I could have spent on ME today, I spent on pleasing him, taking him in my mouth and instead of focusing on my release, focusing on every movement of my tongue and hands on him, bringing him to HIS climax. As he came, I felt a deep sense of satisfaction, and it was WORTH giving up my own just to enjoy the moment he was feeling with him.
He's been happy and pleasant and wonderful ever since.
I LOVE denial more every day. So painfully pleasurable.Wow.

So busy!

Life has been so busy and we've had ZERO privacy in the house for about the last 10 days.
Every day has been a tease. We were driving alone the other day and I put my hand inside the front of his jeans and stroked him as he drove. When we got home we were super busy, no time to finish what we started. Looking forward to maybe seeing if this Sunday we can find time to be alone...

Impatiently awaiting Sunday!

The want and need to be TAKEN in any way is overwhelming! Can't wait til our alone time/date day on Sunday! I keep thinking back to the Ruined that I had the other night and cannot WAIT to have more of the same! I think the sex is so much better when I'm concentrating on HIS pleasure, what he's feeling.
Totally hot. ;)
Our workweek together is so busy we never even have time to consider much during it. But I am just SO hot and bothered this week that I could just burst!

Mid-week update

Middle of the week, still hanging in there after my ruined session. Starting to watch everything he does with eager eyes and fantasizing about him just using me for his pleasures...Sunday is our only real day off from work and school, let the countdown begin. I think I will talk to him about seeing how long I can really go without it, or perhaps having another ruined one to keep me wanting. Fellas, if you want to keep a lady REALLY wanting it, give her a ruined. It's almost better than not cumming at all because it gives you a taste of it without any finished type feelings. It only makes you want it more. Like when you think you're going to sneeze, and even open your mouth to do it, then suddenly and VERY disappointed-like, you realize you're not going to sneeze after all.
That feeling is enough to drive anyone crazy!

Ruined On Purpose

So a few days ago I had my first on-purpose ruined orgasm. I couldn't stop thinking about it and finally brought it up during sex very shyly. He agreed to try. He held my legs apart and stimulated me until I started to feel it coming on...and then he firmly held my legs apart. It was EXQUISITE. All of the build-up, and the climax was different, it started out REALLY strong, felt incredible, and then kind of died out, leaving me wanting MORE immediately.
He kept touching me and it happened AGAIN. WOW!

More about a Doms right...

So a while before I was talking a little bit about a man's (dom) right to an orgasm...
I think about it a lot actually. There is something so satisfying about knowing they have a nice deep pleasing orgasm while you enthusiastically pleasure them and have to wait. I think not being able to just cum when we want to creates a great need to please them since it's the closest that WE will get to it. I'll be honest, when we used to have sex, the MOMENT I was done cumming, I was so NOT into it anymore! We'd be having sex, really really going at it, I'd be riding him tirelessly and then cum, and suddenly I just wanted to roll over and sleep or go do more important things, even if he hadn't finished yet. I was just notorious for it. Now I find denial so much better in making sure we both get pleased, well okay, maybe just him, but you know what I mean. :)